3/6/23

 been a hot minute since i wrote! i wanted to keep this consistent but after christmas I kind of forgot. hilarious though, because i still remember what i wanted to talk about here at the time. i bought a tree for my first christmas ever in the basement and decorated it myself, we got our food stolen at panera, i got addicted to playing 2000s BL games and still have a bunch of them on my computer (they're sooo good... i am a yaoihead now. in 2023. LOL)

my senior year is coming to a close and man if i say the senioritis isn't hitting hard it is a LIE. i am sooo so tired of everything, my life's kind of gone back to a comfortable boredom. i don't feel like doing shit. my school established an art honor's society that i am now a part of--and i'm very thankful for it. but it also dropped a shit ton of responsibility on my ass last minute that i'm not too happy about. it's our first year and things are super rickety and unestablished, so it's a total headache. we set up plans for a table at a school comic con WAY last minute and have absolutely nothing to sell. i was going to make prints but... with the amount of time i have between my portfolio and my laziness, i didn't really get to anything. i'm just going to sell a few copies of my transformers work and hope for the best.

my art is getting displayed at a huge state-senior exhibition in chicago! i got lucky to have two pieces shown there. it'll be in april. can't wait!

also, today my doko demo issyo figures came in the mail which is frikkin awesome. these little guys rock. no other comment on them, just another way to sink myself into a fucking "i'm living what i wanted in 2014" fantasy. LOL.

but they are so cute.

on the other hand, i watched star trek with my friend magnus last night, and a few episodes of the boys. i absolutely adore spock and kirk, and on the worse side, homelander. he's hot in a pathetic way.

ON THE TOPIC OF HOT... i have a boy-something now. i don't even know, we've been out on two dates but neither of us have really established it as anything. our last date was really fun, we got greek food, went to a pet store, thrifted, and then went to a park to smoke and i showed him one of my cool little spots there. sadly he forgot his lighter so we went to walgreens and bought one, before going to a different park and we smoked there instead. and then he dropped me off at home. my friend ava says he's definitely into me since she talks to him a lot more than i do. she told me last time that he was talking about letting me hit his bowl ONCE and that he wouldn't let anything happen to me ever. HAHA. he thinks i haven't gotten high before. that's honestly understandable with how much i refuse shit, i just don't want to come home stinking like ass when my mom is a total hound for the stuff. especially after a date.

i don't really know what else to say... i have so much happening that is fun and that i want to talk about but putting it all into words would take fucking forever. writing here always clears my head too and i can basically feel myself blanking and calming down as i do it. is this a diary, or a method of therapy? i have no clue. anyways, to close off, here's a small art dump. as always, ciao!